J E S S I C A;

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 22:29:35 GMT

i made a new journal.
a fresh start, on a fresh round.

keepit_up

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 20:01:00 GMT

eric wood; thanks for continuously talking shit about me.

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 07:36:58 GMT

this weekend was the worst yet best weekend of my life.

i just wanted to see you.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:27:55 GMT

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
hahaha. i am so happy.

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 15:13:47 GMT

stoked on plans to go to uxbridge on saturday to have sweet hangouts with jeffrey.
soooo cute. ugh. i love myspace picture comment conversations. sooo cute. ugh.

i have to work today. five til nine.
i think my sister is going to come in and stuff the monkey i bought her for her birthday.
ha. 'stuff the monkey'. jeeze.

foot tattoos suck. straight up.

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 03:04:59 GMT

can you blame me for falling so fast? let's say we just take things as they come. i know i've told you but you still have no idea that you deserve every joy that i hope i make you fee, and i hear. this is as real as it gets ya'll. it don't get no realer than this. this is as real as it gets girl. it don't get no realer that this night. with bob dylan and candle light spiling over you filling this perfect night. and i'm nowhere near ready to hear you say goodbye. i'm willing to comprimise for this feeling it's real and it's worth the fight. i think you're worth the fight. i hope i'm worth the fight to you. can you blame me for hoping this will last? let's say we just drive so far that we run out of gas and talk about how heavy this all seems. i'll say i feel it too, but Lord it doesn't have to be and; i can't help but thinking, this is too good to be true, too good to be true and i know what you're thinking but shorty you deserve me, maybe i deserve you. i've got a new appreciation for...with bob dylan and candle light spiling over you filling this perfect night. and i'm nowhere near ready to hear you say goodbye. i'm willing to comprimise for this feeling it's real and it's worth the fight. i think you're worth the fight. i hope i'm worth the fight to you. like spring snow she melts me take it slow cause you got me and i know we're new but i'm happy to call you my girl. i'm willing to comprimise for this feeling it's real and it's worth the fight. i think you're worth the fight. i hope i'm worth the fight to you.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 18:44:13 GMT

i love randi prior.

tattoo. bad picture. yes.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 00:25:09 GMT

i definitly got another tattoo.

Thu, 26 Jan 2006 17:48:26 GMT

i fucking love this girl.
xbestfriendsx.

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 02:09:58 GMT

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....i hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin’ might mean takin’ chances but they’re worth takin’,
Lovin’ might be a mistake but it’s worth makin’,
Don’t let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin’ out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....i hope you dance.
I hope you dance....i hope you dance.
(time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone.)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

Dance....i hope you dance.
I hope you dance....i hope you dance.
I hope you dance....i hope you dance..
(time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 16:34:13 GMT

the last thing i sent to you was "can i call you? i need it."
no reply. i sat and waited for two hours. no reply. i needed it.
i hate today.
i can't go to church this morning because i am too angry.
angry with Him. angry with myself. angry.
when i got home last night i fell to my knees and cried.
i wanted to scream. "why? why? why? why? WHY?"
i balled my fists and held my breath and thought about how unhealthy it was.
yes, you've been gone for a year. no, i can't handle it.
i think about you constantly. constantly.
sometimes i even forget that you're gone.
dial 905-723-0...fuck.
the it comes. and i feel sick to my stomach.
i just wish you were still here.

dear grandma ruby law;
i miss you more with each day you're gone.
remember the llamas? remember the easter balloon baskets?
i do. and i'll never forget.
one year ago today, my heart broke when God took the most important woman away.
i wish you were here to see how much we've grown. to see how happy we are.
although, i probably wouldn't have this sweet tattoo, which reminds me of you daily.
i miss you. i love you and i'll see you later.
♥

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 04:45:06 GMT

I LOVE THE MOOOOOOOOOOOOSE!

sixty-nine things you never knew about me.

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 21:00:14 GMT

i've totally done this before. but i'mmmma do it again because i can.

1. Initials: JDW.
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: MATT CANNING. I WORK WITH HIM. HE'S KINDA A DREAM. AND MAYBE RANDI, MAYBE.
3. Where was your first kiss? ON THE BIKE PATH BETWEEN HARMONY HEIGHTS PS & THE ROSSLAND SQUARE. UNDER A TREE.
4. For or against same sex marriage? FOR. TO EACH HIS OWN.
5. Are you homophobic? NO.
6. Are you bisexual? NO.
7. Do you believe in God? ABSOLUTLY.
8. How many U.S states have you been to? SIX. I WANT TO SAY SIX. SIX SOUNDS GOOD.
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? 500.
10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? UH, YEAH.
11. Name something you like physically about yourself? MY DOUBLE ELBOW CREASE. ASK ME AND I'LL SHOW YOU.
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself: I CAN BE POSITIVE, AND HELPFUL. I GUESS.
13. Whats your moms first name? KIMBERLY.
14. What is Your Dream Car? ANYTHING THAT WILL GET ME FROM POINT A TO POINT B WORKS.
15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go? POND ROAD REZ. YORK UNIVERSITY. AND I'D LIVE THERE.
16. Have you ever had someone of the opposite sex sleep over? BALLS.
18. Do you download music? ALL THE TIME.
19. How many illegal things have you done? A FEW.
20. Where would you want to go on a first date? SOMEWHERE WHERE WE COULD DO SOMETING ACTIVE. SITTING IN A MOVIE THEATRE IS BORING. BUILDING A BEAR, NOW THATS WHERE IT'S AT!
21. Would you date the person who posted this before you? RANDI? HECK YES.
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? MATT SANG A SONG BY 'WHITE SNAKE' TO ME NOT LONG AGO. DOES THAT COUNT?
23. Ever been kissed under fireworks? PUKE.
24. Do you like president Bush? NOT A FAN, NO.
25. Have u ever bungee jumped? AT WONDERLAND?
26. Have you ever white water rafted? NO.
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? THIS DUDE 'BRAD' WHOS ALWAYS AT THE MALL.
28. Have you ever met a real redneck? NO. BUT I CAN SHOW YA SOME REAL GOOD WHITE TRASH...
30. What is the craziest thing you have ever done at a party? I DEFINITLY DON'T PARTY.
31. Have you ever met someone famous? I AM SOMEONE FAMOUS.
32. What is your current favorite song? ANYTHING BY XTYRANTX. THAT;S PRETTY MUCH ALL I LISTEN TO.
33. What was the last movie you watched? HOSTEL. WITH MATT. ON SUNDAY.
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? WORK.
36. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property? THE TARTAN TAVERN.
37. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? I'VE THROWN A FEW KICK ASS PUNCHES. BAHAHAHA. NO.
39. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? I DON'T KNOW.
40. What really turns you on? PONY PLAY.
41. First, a skipped number, now a skipped question okay? WHAT?
42-44. Say 3 totally random things about yourself:
42. I HAVEN'T PAID MY PHONE BILL IN THREE MONTHS.
43. I BASICALLY LIVE FOR GREEN TEA. COLD. GREEN. TEA.
44. MY BOOBS HAVE GOTTEN MASSIVE. M A S S I V E.
45. Do you have an ipod? YES.
46. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity? NO.
48. Do you have braces? I HAD THEM.
49. Are you comfortable with your height? I WISH I WAS JUST A LITTLE SHORTER.
50. Do you like someone right now? I DO. I DO INDEED.
51. How tall are you? 5'8 MAYBE TALLER.
52. Do you speak any other language other than English? NO.
55. Have you ever ridden in a limo? GRADE EIGHT GRADUATION. AND AN AIRPORT LIMO.
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? YES.
57. Do you watch MTV? I DON'T REALLY WATCH TV.
58. What's something that really annoys you? IMMATURITY. NEGATIVITY. JAMESXGRAHAM.
59. What are some things you really like? GREEN TEA. MATT. READING. BUBBLE TEA. MUSIC.
60. Do you like Michael Jackson? I DON'T NOT LIKE HIM.
61. Can you dance? I'M A FUCKING SUPERSTAR.
62. Have you ever surfed? NO.
63. Do you know how to pump gas? NO.
64. Do you drive? NO. I CAN'T. I JUST...SUCK.
65. What's the latest you have ever stayed up? I FALL ASLEEP REALLY EASILY.
66. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? NOPE.
67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? ONCE.
68. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do? MHM.
69. What's your favorite state to live in? BALLS.

I'M PRETTY PARTIAL TO CAPS LOCK.

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 14:51:51 GMT

dear you. you know who you are.
(although you do not read my livejournal, i'm hoping you'll lurk me just once.)

it's no surprise, really. you'll be a piece of shit 'til the day you die.
i can't wrap my head around why i did what i did for you. i know you and i know you well.
and i should have known that this time would have been no different from the last two times you've done this to me. so, way to go, on my part. i'm probably the smartest, and most desperate woman alive.
remember the last two times and how well i took everything? didn't say one word. not one.
i stuck by you with a huge fake smile and waited for you to want me again. and when the time came that you decided you did, i dropped everything for you. everything.
i have left behind two of the most genuine people i have ever met, for you. as a result, one of the most important people in my life, hates me and is no longer the most important person in my life. and that was for you. all for the off chance s o m e t h i n g good could come of it. anything.

my mind is overflowing with curse words and offensive phrases i'd like to scream in your general direction, but that would get me no where. you'd laugh at me. and i'd take it, cause you're in control. and you've made that obvious.
i hate you _____X______. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

i'm gonna get up and have a shower, get dressed and go to work and i'm gonna smile all day long. because although i feel like a horrible person, i know in my heart that i'll never be as worthless as you. ever.
have fun with her, and with your life, and then after you push her away and fuck another fifteen year old, i won't be there for you. not like last time. not again.

fuck you.
love: jessica.

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 18:28:30 GMT

friends only.

comment to be added.
cute.